Just under three years ago I started Hauteonmyheels.com as a prospect that I was completely unsure off. Sure I was aware of a few bloggers, read a few blogs but I never anticipated just quite how huge the blogging industry was or how much it would shape me as a person. Back in 2015, I was timid, nervous constantly and afraid to speak up on certain things - I had dropped out of university, didn't really have many friends that I could rely on and was about to embark onto my second try at university (this time on a course that I was much more interested in). Whenever people ask me why I started blogging, I'll be honest sometimes I'm a little unsure but the few bloggers who I did follow back then were ones that inspired me to push myself into this world and out of my comfort zone. Being completely candid, it took me a few months/years to really get into my own blog and find exactly it was that I wanted to talk/write/post about, my first few posts were vague beauty posts, lists of clothes that I was loving or a little bit of motivation in the form of pictures from my tumblr (inspired by Amy Cooper, fyi I still read hers every week). However every time that I hit the publish button on one of those posts I was unsure as to why I was doing in. Was I doing it to up the blog post count to make me seem more credible? Was I posting that because that's what I thought everyone wanted? Or was I posting that because that's what everyone else seemed to be doing and I should be doing it too? These are still the questions that I find myself asking before I click the publish/schedule button on my blog. After about 6 or 7 months of blogging (or as I like to call it - sitting at the sidelines) basically just doing what I thought I should be doing, I decided that I wanted my blog to have a little more personality and to be a little more present within my blog, so I started featuring sporadically within posts. I post in clothes that I was currently wearing, never truly wearing what I posted about as an ootd until I lot of months later or not really feeling a passion for the clothes that I was writing about. Posing in my back garden, my mother, bf, sister, father all took photos of me in those outfits but I never truly felt comfortable, again I felt like I was filling a void in my blog for what I thought people wanted to see, posting clothes that I decided to buy and wear because that cooler, bigger blogger than me did so I must do exactly the same so I can be in her position one day. Until one day I realised I wasn't being true to myself. I definitely did want to feature in my blog posts and even though still I'm not entirely sure on how to act in front of the camera and I'm still searching for the locations that inspire me to push my photography further, I decided it was time to truly push myself and put myself out there into the blogging world and be who I truly am. Over the past few months I've changed up my blogging style and 2018 has seen me write posts that I never second guess myself to post, I feature clothes, topics and little hints of my personality that I would never have before. I'm beginning to feel confident in my posts because I feel comfortable and like myself in the clothes that I'm wearing, instead of clone from those big "ootd" accounts we see all over instagram. Truly putting myself out there, in all senses is something that I am pushing myself to do, but it has changed the mentality that I follow everyday - I no longer feel the pressure to publish a post because I haven't in two days, I no longer feel pressured to post about things that I don't want to. GET THE LOOK.Coat - Zara (unavailable, similar linked) Jumper -Topshop (Old, similar linked) Jeans - Next Trainers - Nike Although I still have a little way to go with how comfortable and how I behave in front of the camera and feeling confident enough to speak over on insta stories, I am really grateful that I trusted my gut to put myself out there with my blog. I'm more motivated than ever with blog post ideas and my productivity is better than ever (because it was never really fun to sit there for two hours trying to type a paragraph to start of my blog posts). They say that your 20s are full of lessons and this is definitely one that I'm glad I learned sooner rather than later. Putting yourself out there and being unafraid to be yourself is something that will always benefit you so continue to push yourself and see what you're capable of.
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Yes, it's that time of the month again where I focus on a beauty brand that I've added to my collection of skincare, makeup, haircare, etc (you get the point) and this month is a another healthy dose of skincare - because you can't get enough skincare right?! I'll admit that this was an unintentional purchase and one that I made whilst perusing the isles of asda's whilst doing the weekly food shop with my mama. Located next to my holy grail of micellar water was the NSPA range that had a lovely 3 for 2 deal on them, so I though, hey it'd be rude not to try it right?! So et voila the story of my NSPA purchase is born. It is definitely no secret that I have suffered with acne over my teenage/early 20 years so I'm always really careful with the skincare that I use and often quite unsure about how products will work. However I decided to pick up two skincare goodies that caught my eye (my mother got the other one, to get the 3 for 2 deal) the Hot Cloth Polish and a Skin Glow mud mask, so grab a cuppa because we are about to embark on my nspa, skincare adventure... |
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December 2018
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